ONLY A LITTLE CRAZY

Alright, time to update I should think! It's been an interesting few weeks. Pretty relaxing and nearly restful. Well, that's how it was. It's not like that anymore, but I'm trying to be optimistic about the fact that it'll all get better and smooth out eventually. It's just that I was so used to the pattern that life fell into these last fews weeks, and now it's been thrown up in the air, and everything is just up there and doesn't want to seem to land on anything solid. Then again, it could be that everything has landed, and I just can't find it cuz it's in the midst of all the bags and boxes that have taken over my living room floor! I just don't like confusion. Orderliness is more my thing, and I like things to be that way all the time. So I'm sure that once it gets back to there I'll start enjoying it again.

But enough! I've been here for almost three weeks now and it's kinda hard to believe. I'm getting used to it more every day, and for the most part I even like it. The fact that I now live in a city is still a little hard to grasp though. Nothing out here ever stops! Always on the go, the people here never take their time doing anything! I'm pretty thankful in that respect, that I grew up in a small town. I think it gives me a bit more patience than most people out here have. But yeah, it's alright. In time I may even come to really like it here. We'll see what I have to say once school starts and life gets more hectic, but for the moment things are quite ok. I'm not missing home too too badly yet, although the sunsets out here totally suck! And I'm not going to apologize for that, cuz everyone should know that Saskatchewan sunsets totally kick butt, and hardly anything can compare to them. Colors just aren't the same at all out here, not nearly as vibrant as they should be. But really, if that's all I can really complain about, then I think I'm doing pretty good so far!

So yup, that's me at the moment. Not thrilled about the idea of going back to school, but I think that only a complete nut ever is really excited about that. So I guess you could say that I'm sane, and really, isn't that a shocker?!

END OF AN ERA

So it comes down to this - my last day at home. I'm feeling slightly morbid at the moment, it's not too bad, but I'm feeling it. I'm really aware that it's my last day here, that it's my last time doing all the things I usually do here. It's not an overwhelming feeling, but it's there, and I'm not liking it too much. I'm not breaking down in random tears like I was yesterday so that's good. Feels like I'm making some progress in that respect. But really, I don't think I can really be ok until after I've been out there for a few days, til I'm adjusted to life out there. It's going to be weird, I can tell you that! But I'm sure it'll be fine. I'm really looking forward to getting out of here; it's definitely time to move. So we'll see how it goes.