I don't really know where to start with the thoughts that are in my head. Everything's been jumbled up the last couple of days and more often than not I find that I want to cry. Mainly because nothing is in my control and I hate that feeling. Wish I was at home but I'll be there soon enough so I guess that's better than nothing. But home is where I'd be able to put my worries aside and so it's not really helping me at the moment. Funny how you can tell yourself that everything will be ok and believe it too, but still doubt it. I need to be at home, just want to go home, can't wait til next week.