PERSPECTIVE & PEACE

One of the greatest benefits to be gleaned from the Bible is perspective - God's Word is tailor-made for grey-slush days. It sends a beam of light through the fog. It signals safety when we fear we'll never make it through. Such big-picture perspective gives us a hope transplant, and within a brief period of time, we have escaped the bleak and boring and we're back at soaring. . .

And within a matter of hours night will fall, the dark sky will glitter with moon and stars, and sleep will force itself upon us. Life will continue on uninterrupted. Appreciated or not, the canvas of nature will go on being painted by the fingers of God . . . reminders of His deep peace.

Walk softly, play happily, dream sweetly, love deeply.

CLEANING, SWIMMING, AND SUNSTROKE

Ah today's been lovely, just lovely. Nothing out of the ordinary, just a normal Monday, but a good one! Work went amazingly fast, thanks to Janelle. Gotta love that girl, and I'm really finding it too bad that she only started a week ago, because I would've loved working with her for longer. But yeah, work went really well, and that doesn't happen very often anymore so that alone completely thrilled me. And then this afternoon was just the best! I exercised for awhile and then lounged in my pool for a couple of hours. And it honestly didn't feel like that long at all! Mhmm, gotta love the pool! :) However, because it didn't feel like all that long when it actually was, I got a bit of sunstroke. Oooh, that's a gross feeling. But the pills have been taken and I'm about to lie down, so it'll be all good in just a lil bit!

NOT SO BLAH

Alright. So the number is wrong, and that sucks a lot. Well, it sucks a bit. Frankly, I thought I'd be a lot more bummed about it than I am. But I won't be done work next Friday. No, now I'm done on the following Wednesday, the 26th. So that's not too bad, only a few more extra days, and I can probably handle that. So instead of being done work in 7 days, I'm now done in 10. And hey, ten's a pretty good number! It only gets smaller from here! I do hope that time speeds up a bit though. I'm kinda sick of it dragging along :)

9

Is the number of days of work I have left! Such a pretty number, is the number 9. I happen to really like that number, but for other reasons besides it being how many days I have left. But yes! Every day that goes by makes me happier and happier, and I know that I'm gonna be jumping outta my skin by the time next Friday rolls around. To have been waiting for nearly 14 months, and to finally reach the end, is absolutely amazing. I don't know how I'm going to celebrate, but I'll make sure to do something. Gotta do something! It's a momentous event! And I'm not going to regret quitting for one millisecond! Oh that's gonna be a good good day.

Today's good too though. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy right now. Life has evened out a lot, and I mean A LOT, in the last week and I'm feeling much much better. Everything's been sorting itself out bit by bit, and I know it'll only get even better, and that's a lovely thing. The present is bearable and the future is looking great. And it'll be even better in 9 days!

HOPE IN A NEW DAY

Well I don't really know what to say. I don't really even know what to think anymore. I have always found it funny how life can change in the space of seconds, and I'm quite experienced with that. But honestly, I never quite knew how quickly it all could change until just recently. And ya know what? I don't like it. I like how life used to be, the certainty of things, the knowledge that some things will always remain constant. And all that has been shot to hell. Some of my beliefs has been shaken to the core, trust is nonexistent, and the hurt is extreme. Taking the easy way out is not an option, however, so the hurt is a necessary part of the healing process. I just wish that healing didn't take so bloody long. But every new day is a blessing, even if it doesn't feel like it. Yesterday was brutal but today is ok. Tomorrow will be even better, and before I know it the past will be blurred memories. It's just having to live with the present that I don't much care for.