GROOVING

So I've been told that I need to update this thing seeing as how I haven't written in awhile. I think it should be understood why I don't write much. It's not that I'm busy; goodness knows I don't have all that much to do and keep me occupied. It's because I'm lazy. Plain and simple. LAZY. And most days I just don't feel like writing down how boring my existence really is. Because I could write about nothing, a whole lot of nothing; I'm quite good at it, maybe I said that once before. But lately I just haven't felt like taking the time to do it. And I do have something to write about. It's not as though it would completely be about nothing; things DO happen from time to time. Anyways, so I'm updating it.

So Gracie came to visit this past week. Took me by surprise cuz I hadn't heard from her since May. But she came down from Edmonton and it was so good to see her. Hadn't seen her in over a year. She hasn't changed a bit. More mature, but still loopy Gracie. And I love her. She wants me to go live in Edmonton with her. HAHA. I consider that to be a joke and a half. I have no interest in going to Edmonton. But then, I had no interest in going to Winnipeg and I'm considering that now. So who knows...

And yesterday was Friday. My favorite day of the week because I have the option of taking a nap in the afternoon. And nap is what I most certainly did. For 2 and a half hours! It was sublime. I like that word. Sublime. And so I napped in the pitch black family room and turned on Cinderella for background noise and it played through twice before I woke up. Felt wonderful. And yesterday evening I went over to Corrie's to watch movies. And stayed there til 3:30 this morning. Oh boy did I ever feel gross when I got home. I think it's a miracle that I was even able to walk home without falling down. But I feel worse now because I only slept for 4 hours. So my legs are just a little shakey and I have a splitting headache but things could be worse I suppose. Things could always be worse.

Anyways, I got some good advice the other day that I'm trying to act on now. Don't know how well it'll work out. But Gracie told me to just have fun grooving. Not to worry about anything and have fun living and being myself. I thought about that later. How there are certain people that I just have a hard time being myself around. (like all of my ex-boyfriends) And it's not as though I put on a completely different mask when I'm around these people, it's just that I hide certain parts of who I am that I think they might not quite like or would view with skepticism. Or sometimes it's just the fact that I think they would be overwhelmed with that part of my personaltiy. Like my cynicism and sarcasm. (although someone did tell me last week that they like my cynicism). But it's hard. Anyways, the true friends are the ones I can be my complete self around. Unfortunately, there's not many of them left around here. So I guess the ones that are still here are just going to have to get a double dose! And in the meantime I'm just going to groove (Gracie's word, not mine!)