THE LOSS OF THE HAPPY FEELINGS

So every so often there is a day or a part of a day that just seems completely pointless, as though there is no reason to even live through it. A time when it would probably just be best to stay at home instead of going out, or crawl back into bed if already at home. And there doesn't even really have to be a reason as to why it would be a better option, it just would be. On the other hand, however, there very well could be external factors. Everything could be find and dandy one minute, only to have frustrations suddenly heaped on your head the next. Or maybe you just woke up in the morning with an overall feeling of blahness. It really doesn't matter all that much. Well, it does in the sense that it's disconcerting to feel that way. Not the most pleasant feeling in the world. And personally, when I'm suddenly surprised in a negative way I know that I have a very hard time recovering my "happier" state of mind. So it's not necessarily that I woke up with a blah feeling, it's that I'm having a hard time getting my previously positive attitude from yesterday back again. And I could blame other things for the way I'm feeling, but no matter what happened yesterday there is just no valid reason as to why I still feel like this today. Even if my more evil side is telling me that any reason is valid. But then maybe nothing about today relates to yesterday. Today may just have it's own as-of-yet unknown reasons for being blah. Or maybe it's just the fact that it's a very slow moving day and I'm in the mood to be moving and doing things. It could be that, but that doesn't totally make sense seeing as how I've actually gotten some things accomplished today that I wanted to get done. So who knows what the source of the disconcerted feeling is. Maybe I'll just be typical me and blame it on the weather!