ONE MONTH LATER...STUCK IN THE SHRUBS

Ya so you know my new year's resolution? HAHAHA, totally not going so well. In fact, it's really not working at all at this present moment. And the funny thing is, it's working where I didn't expect it to work (well for the most part it is - it's getting slowly better), but it's totally not working in an area that I didn't even really realize could be a problem. And it's getting much much worse as the days go on. And I can't even tell myself to step back, breathe deeply, and try to get new perspective on the situation because there isn't anywhere to go in order to do that! I feel swamped, like I'm drowning. Or like I'm in one of those shrub mazes and I'm surrounded on all sides by towering walls of green. Have I ever mentioned that I'm slightly claustrophobic? Not really scared of small spaces, it's more like afraid of losing my breath in the midst of large amounts of people. And so I guess it would make sense that the resolution isn't working out. Although to be fair, the problem does not have to do with large amounts of people. But it's there and it's tiring and I'm losing my mind. And how is one supposed to resolve something if they've gone insane? I guess if we knew that, there wouldn't be a need for insane asylums.