NOT LIVING

Impatience is getting the better of me today. I'm trying really hard to be happy here, but it's not working at all. The most important part of my life isn't here anymore, and I find that with that missing, I just have no desire to be here for any longer. And I mean I don't want to be here for another day! Pack me up, move me out, I want to go! And so the knowledge that I can't is driving me up the wall. I just feel itchy all over, antsy to get out of here. I know that moving is going to be overwhelming, but staying here is killing me a little more every day. And I know this may just sound like a rant, but seriously, it's emotionally draining me to stay here. And I can't understand why others can't understand that. It's not just a matter of me wanting to move as soon as possible. I want to do that so that I can get settled in and into a sort of routine before school starts. But I also need to go as soon as possible. I'm not alive here, not really. I sometimes feel like I'm just a shell that's sort of existing, but not living. *shake it off* Anyways! That's enough blather. Time to find something productive to do.